Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Fumes

So it's only Tuesday night, and I'm exhausted.
If you think of me, please pray because:
1. I don't know what to do with my students.
2. I don't know what to do with my students.
3. I don't know what to do with my students.
4. I need to rely on God for the wisdom to know what to do with my students.

It has been a very trying seven days so far. I won't go into it all, but it is time for some major discipline, and I'm not sure where to start.
Do I really want to be a teacher?
I don't know.
I do know that I am going to bed now. I will be getting up again in seven hours to try again to be faithful to what God has called me. I really do want to come forth as gold and to be a good example to these kids that God has placed in my path.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Crete, NE

Well, since I'm going to write about my trip to Nebraska, I suppose I should find my red Cornhuskers mug and listen to my Owl City tracks (I would say Josh Groban, but I don't like his voice).
[Insert cheering from the Ralston girls at the mention of Owl City]
Well, I'm trying to think back to my time in Nebraska, and right now it's all a big jumble. That's probably because I didn't sleep a whole lot while I was there. Something about staying up late with Amos and all that.
Anyway, I did have a really good time! Julia, Katie, and Reuben came and picked us up at the airport, and it was a challenge even to get Reuben's wife Alisha and baby Ellie to take them home. Thus we were shut out of Amos' parents' house the first night because of unplowed roads. However, the four of us intruders were just fine at Reuben and Alisha's house.
On Friday we hung out for a while before deciding to pick up more of Amos' relatives (Herschel and his family: Christina, Jasmine, and Keira). Julia, Reuben, Herschel, Amos, and I attempted the snowy roads while everyone else stayed at Herschel's house. We tried a few unplowed roads, got stuck a few times, and were dug out by Julia, Reuben, and Herschel (they had the snow boots). We were almost to the Ralston house when we encountered yet another snowy road. It was decided that it might be easier to charge across the pasture and through the trees rather than to attempt the road. So charge we did. And get stuck we did. The three troopers piled out of the truck again, but then a neighbor showed up with his tractor and pulled us out of the pasture...right before the snow plow went by. ;) haha!

Reuben, Herschel, and Julia digging out the truck

We drove up the road to see Santa Claus wearing tan overalls and a cowboy hat, directing us into the driveway. Santa Claus also goes by the name Lester Ralston, who is Amos' dad! We drove up the drifty driveway only to be stuck about twenty feet from the garage. After a lot of backing out, driving forward, digging, instructing, etc., we managed to get all the way to the house. We were greeted by Amos' mom Barb and various other family members, quite happy to see a piece of California at their house. ;) (or something like that...)
This is getting long...
Anyway, we hung out that afternoon, playing games with the youngest Ralston, Nathaniel. We had venison for dinner that night, and it was really good! We played the card game Nertz after
dinner...that was crazy. It was really fun. I have to say that Sara was the best and I was the worst. It was funny though. After a few rounds of Egyptian Rat Slap, we moved on to teasing Amos. He survived, so we sat around and eventually watched a movie.
The next day, some cousins arrived! I was really tired, so I stayed home while all the Ralston and Reed girls went on an outing...I wouldn't normally say outing, but they did go out, and I don't know what other word to use right now. The girls went to see a lady's collection of handmade
dolls, to go to the mall, and to go to the grocery store. I slept. I hear that the collection was really cool, though!

Caitlin, Grace, Hannah, Sara, Amber, Katie, Julia, and a blurry Barb

We hung out, talked, and laughed A LOT. It was really fun.
On Sunday we all piled out to church. I met a lot of people that Amos has talked about, though I only remember a few names! It was really cool. Theodore, Amos, and I stayed at church to have lunch and to pack up some tables and chairs for the open house. We talked to more people at lunch. I tried to stay awake and be intelligent; it was a struggle. Amos, Theodore, and some of the guys from church loaded up a few tables and about twenty chairs into Amos' dad's pickup truck.
Open House was about to get underway, but I was so exhausted it was just sad. I decided to take a nap. Amos was so sweet, making sure I was okay. I slept for about an hour then talked with
Amos for a little while. We heard yelling mixed with regular voices upstairs, but I didn't think anything of it. Next thing I knew, about three sisters were standing in front of us, screaming
"Grandpa is here! Grandpa is here!!!" Amos' grandpa had traveled eight hours from Oklahoma to see the family! Amos was really excited because he hadn't seen him about five years. We said hi to people, ate food, said hi to more people, answered questions, laughed, said hi to more people, made our way through crowds of friends and family, and said hi to even more people. It was a really good night. I liked saying hi to everyone. It was really easy for me, the shyish person,
because all of the friends and families were looking for me. ;) Kind of a strange feeling, but it makes sense. They don't want just any weirdo from California dating Amos! ;) I was comfortable, though. After putting things away and talking to Amos even more, I went to bed.
The next day was a shopping marathon. All of the younger Ralston generation went thrift store shopping. Barb and Lester watching the three babies and Nathaniel, so we had a caravan: Reuben, Alisha, Herschel, Christina, Katie, Julia, Sara, Grace, Theodore, cousins Caitlin and Hannah, Amos, and I. We were a mob. We went to a few stores, found some good stuff, then went to lunch at Runza. If you want to know what a Runza is, click here. It was pretty good. It wasn't the best thing I'd ever had, but it wasn't bad. I think everyone was really curious if I would like it, since Runzas are only sold in two or three states. It had some spice in it that I recognized from pasties in Grass Valley, so it wasn't that unusual.
After lunch, the cousins had to leave (Hannah had left the day before to go back to college). After saying goodbye, we headed out to even more thrift stores! It was a good day. A bunch of us ended up testing out the furniture in one store, waiting for everyone else to be done. We eventually got back and there was a huge fashion show. Everyone showed off what they got. I think Herschel's shirts got the most head-shaking; some of his shirts were pretty ummmmmmm, awful. ;) He seemed to like them, though; Christina, not so much.
Amos' dad read us all a Christmas story that they have read for years. It was a good story about what really matters in Christmas. It was cool to see everyone listening as one big family. I love how they all relate to each other. Each person is different, but they all tease each other, they all like hanging out with each other, they all love each other. It is good to see.

I was told this was a grain elevator; Crete

Tuesday started with Amos being very sick. He was good enough to fly home, but he slept a lot on the plane. Before we actually left Nebraska, we packed up our stuff and said goodbye to a bunch of siblings and Amos' mom. She really loves her kids, so she wasn't very happy to see Amos go. But we loaded the family van with our bags and a few sisters who wanted to come along. We headed out to Crete and picked up Reuben, then headed to Lincoln. We went by the print shop to pick up some type for Reuben and to say goodbye to Amos' dad.
Heading to Omaha, there was quite a riot in the backseat with Reuben, Sara, and Grace. Each decided to tease the other, while Julia sat in the back being her tranquil self. ;) It was really funny because everyone was going crazy, and then the craziness suddenly stopped...and I started falling asleep. Yep, I was very tired that trip, but it was good.

Amos and I at the airport in Omaha; yes, I really was there

It was a very good trip, and I'm so glad I was able to go. I loved meeting all of these people that I had heard about and that I was friends with on Facebook. I'm hoping to see them again this side of heaven!
And if you survived reading this whooooooooooole blogpost, go find something to eat; you must be starved by now.

edit: Sorry for some of the weird formatting/spaces. Sometimes blogger decides it doesn't want to work right.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Expectations

I know what you're all expecting...no, this is not about my trip to Nebraska. HOWEVER, I did have a great time with everyone; that post will have to wait till the weekend when I can spend more time on it. :)
When it snows, it blizzards. God has really blessed me lately. Not only do I have a long-term sub position for several weeks, I also have extra students at tutoring! I'm not as excited about all the work that is now piling up, but I know that I can handle it because God has given it to me. He has been faithful to take care of me before, and He is continuing to care for me now. Also, the director at one tutoring agency basically offered me a summer job, if I wanted it. I don't know the hours yet, but it seems to be one in which I could have some hours at the tutoring company and some hours elsewhere, such as babysitting or Starbucks or something else. We shall see.
It just seems like little blessings and large blessings keep falling down. I switch back and forth between being an optimist and a pessimist (an inbetweenist? I don't know. Haha!), so I know that I will not always have such great blessings in my life. However, I know that God will always love me and care for me. I hope to remember this period of my life when I get to some dark days and am tempted to despair.

God is good all the time.
All the time, God is good.

"He is your praise, and He is your God, who has done for you these great and awesome things which your eyes have seen. Your fathers went down to Egypt with seventy persons, and now the LORD your God has made you as the stars of heaven in multitude."
-Deuteronomy 10:21-22 NKJV

Saturday, January 09, 2010

Snow

I'm in Nebraska! It's been fun so far...not too cold either, considering I haven't really gone outside. ;) Our first night we didn't get to get all the way to Amos' house; the roads weren't plowed, so we crashed at his brother's house. It was quite the adventure, as were the flying chocolate chips in the morning. Amos' family is pretty crazy, but I like them all. :)
Now I'm going to take a nap, while a big chunk of the population is gone. ;) But hey, at least I'll be more awake when they come back!

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Flight

Hello, blog readers! I know it's almost 2:00am, but in about 13 hours, I will be on a plane with Amos, headed for the frosty region formally known as Nebraska, USA! It should be really fun! Lots of people, lots of snow, and lots of time. I just thought I'd say hello and goodbye before I left.
And now I'm going to bed.
Night!

Monday, January 04, 2010

Provision

I'm so excited right now, I'm kinda freaking out.
I've known for a while that I would be cutting it close with bills and such for January and February. I wasn't going to be subbing for at least four weeks, I wouldn't be tutoring for at least three weeks, I was going to be spending money on gas (400 miles one way + sidetrips), I was going to be going to Nebraska, etc. and so forth.
However, God has really been showing me His provision lately. I heard from a teacher I recently met at church that sub jobs would pick up in the spring. I also knew that I had a new student that I would be tutoring two days a week with one tutoring company. I was hoping that my other tutoring company would pick up more students because of parents who wanted to raise final GPAs. I was hoping for some Christmas money.
In the last week, God has shown me that He is the One caring for me in ways I never imagined. I received unexpected money, and I received an unexpected job. I will write more in later posts (once the job part is official), but in the last few days I have been totally blessed in many different ways. God is active in my life. I've had it hard for a while, but I've never been in serious trouble. God has helped me and provided for me even when I was really down and didn't know what would happen next. He was there when I was worrying instead of trusting and looking down instead of up. My prayer is that I will be truly thankful for what God has given me, even when I'm tired and confused and frustrated. My prayer is that I will remember this time when I'm tempted to despair and remember that God is there for me in much and in little.
My God is a Rock, and my God is good.

And as a lot of photographers say on their blogs, "A post is always better with a picture!"