Showing posts with label Hmmmm. Show all posts
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Friday, October 13, 2017

Poetry and time and stairs

Poetry is best read while climbing stairs.

I work on the ninth floor of a fifteen-floor building. On the days that I arrive a few minutes early, I take the stairs. I start on the first floor, walking through the elevator lobby and turning right at the security desk.  I open the door next to the letter drop, step inside the stairwell, adjust my lunch bag and Nalgene in my left hand, and dig out my poetry book with my right.  I read two or three poems as I climb up to the twelfth floor, cross the elevator lobby, and walk back down to the ninth floor, where I emerge right next to our office door.

Currently I am reading Aimless Love: New and Selected Poetry by Billy Collins.

Why am I reading this particular collection?  Well, a few months ago I visited a nearby library (versus the library right across the street :D ), and I saw this book of poetry sitting on a shelf.  I remembered something our Sunday School leader and church elder, Brian, had said a few months before, something about Billy Collins being his favorite poet.  I opened the book at random and read the poem "Hangover," which is hilarious.  I promptly added Aimless Love to my stack.  I read many of the poems at home, one right after another, but I was pretty sure that poetry is better spread out over time.  I took the book to work and tried it out as my stair-climbing read.

Fast forward a few months, and I was once again taking the stairs to my office, reading the poem "Quandary."


Quandary

I was a little disappointed
in the apple I lifted from a bowl of fruit
and bit into on the way out the door,
fuzzy on the inside and lacking the snap of the ripe.

Yesterday it was probably perfect,
I figured, as I held it out before me,
soft red apple bearing my tooth marks,
as if I were contemplating the bust of Aristotle.

I considered all the people
who would be grateful to have this apple,
and others who might find it in their hearts
to kill me before slipping it into a pocket.

And I considered another slice
of the world's population, too,
those who are shielded from anything
as offensive as a slightly imperfect apple.

Then I took a second bite, a big one,
and pitched what was left
over the tall hedges hoping to hit on the head
a murderer or one of the filthy rich out for a stroll.

-Billy Collins


Later that day, I ate a fuzzy apple.  Haha!  When Amos got home, I read him "Quandary."  (He had eaten the other half of the fuzzy apple at lunchtime.)


Why do I read poetry while walking up stairs?  For one, it helps me to keep going.  Climbing twelve floors is not easy, and sometimes I want to give up.  The poems keep me focused on the word pictures he is painting, rather than on my legs that want to ditch the stairs and take the elevator at the sixth floor ("Come on, some exercise is better than none!  Maybe the elevator would be good today...").  For another, I am easily distracted these days (stupid social media).  Billy Collins' poems are all short stories, usually with a surprise or a twist in the last few lines; I can easily visualize the short scenes of his poems.  Also, I just love words.

In discovering this combination of poetry, limited time, and stairs, I feel like I have discovered a secret.  I am almost done with Aimless Love, and I wonder what poetry I will find next...

Friday, May 26, 2017

Six links and a weed

A few links for today...

Key Lime Pie VII Recipe from allrecipes.com
Five stars from 2,384 reviews.  I made a gluten-free shortbread crust and baked it in an 8x8 pan before mixing up the filling and baking it as lime bars.  It took about four and half regular limes to make 3/4 cup juice.
Oh yeah.
It's good.


Vanishing Adulthood and an American Moment: A Conversation with Senator Ben Sasse with Al Mohler from albertmohler.com
Ben Sasse is a senator from Nebraska.  He recently wrote a book about the importance of work in the lives of adolescents.  This interview with Al Mohler touches on many things, including work, leisure vs. recreation, America as an idea, the importance of books and travel, and many other topics.  Ben Sasse and Al Mohler are both well read and highly intelligent; it is a great interview.  Amos and I listened to this last night, and in the middle of the interview, Amos hopped on our library website and put this book on hold.
I haven't read it yet, but it is going to be awesome.

Two more interviews with Ben Sasse:
No More Neverland: A Senator's Guide to Raising American Adults from NPR
Sen. Ben Sasse Is On the Hunt for 'American Adults' from WBUR (I have not listened to this one yet.)


How To Love When You Don't Feel Like It from desiringgod.com
The main point I took away from this article was, how do you love someone when you don't feel like it?  You do what you would do if you DID feel like it.
Someone shared this on Facebook, and I've kept it open in my browser to remind myself to love Amos, even when I'd rather not.


And in case you need something to listen to, I recommend the soundtrack from Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them. :)


A small weed on our porch.  How cool!

Friday, April 28, 2017

Just a note

I sometimes see manufactured items in a new light.
Who made this toothpick?  Who gets to say, "I work in a toothpick factory"?  Somebody's gotta do it.
Or what about a perfume or lotion company?  Who watches over the vats of Bath & Body Works lotion?  Does their husband or wife get tired of smelling "Sweet Magnolia & Clementine"?

I decided to start in on my audio copy of Dracula a few weeks ago, obtained for free from Audiobook Sync, which I link to every year. :)  Unfortunately their selection doesn't look very interesting this year.  BUT, I really lucked out in 2015 because my version of Dracula, from Naxos Audiobooks, is great.  Dracula is a very creepy story, but Bram Stoker was a brilliant writer; he had a gift for writing suspense.  Dracula contains so many twists, turns, and surprises that I wonder how I have not just sat down and read till I am done or my eyes fall out, haha! I still have about sixty pages or three hours to go. What more can happen?!

Amos is at a men's dinner at church tonight.  I suppose I shall go make a smoothie, do some dishes, and find out what happens next...hold on Madam Mina! Help is on the way!

Tuesday, June 07, 2016

Home.

Home
is a mysterious place.
Is it
family?
Is it
friends?
Is it
church?
Is it
mountains?
Is it
desert?
Is it
ocean?
Is it
plains?
Is it
canyons?
Is it
rain?
Is it
pines?


A series of homes for a friend.

California

Arizona

Eretz Israel

Washington

Illinois

Monday, April 04, 2016

Two years later

Here we are again. April 4th.  A day that will live in infamy, at least for me.

Two years ago, Amos and I arrived in Oklahoma City, full of hopes and excitement.  My hopes were quickly crushed, smothered under homesickness, the ugliness of the city, and a gaping hole that used to be my identity (friend, neighbor, missions coordinator, note taker, needed).

I was miserable.

Two years later, I am doing a lot better.

In the two years we have been here...
I have found some nice grocery stores, especially in Tulsa.  (Hello, Reasor's!  I love your cheese samples! :D )
I found my favorite OK hill, also in Tulsa.  It definitely isn't a mountain, but it's better than nothing!  Sometimes I take a detour, just so I can drive down it.
We have attended two great churches, both with good teaching and friendly community group/Sunday School classes.
We have made some very nice, genuine, encouraging friends, both in OKC and Tulsa.
I have had several jobs: substitute teacher, testing center clerk, and now, administrative assistant at a small corporation.
I have been able to visit California a few times.
We have survived severe weather!
We have so far managed to avoid any collisions.  Seriously, the driving in Southern California is nothing compared to driving in Tulsa.  Who taught these people how to "drive"?!
We have moved four times in two years.  The longest time we spent in one apartment was seven and a half months, and the shortest time (in the drafty bug house with the nutso landlord) was thankfully just three months.

All in all, looking back, it has been tough, but not bad.

Amos and I were talking about our transition last night, and we realized we still aren't used to living here.

We lived in Santa Clarita for almost ten years.  We attended our last church, Crossroads, for almost five years.  We had a routine, and even when we added things to that routine, it was still manageable.

Here in Oklahoma, we are still getting used to living in one apartment for more than half a year.  We are still trying to remember the names of all the friendly people at church.  We are still figuring out where to go to eat.  We are still dealing with weekly headaches for Amos.  We are still wondering when we will have time to fit in our normal California activities, like getting frozen yogurt on Sunday evenings or going on walks.  We are still trying to go to bed before 11:00.  We are still dealing with stress, known and unknown.

Still.

But.

Our second year was better than our first.  Here's to even better things, in year three of this exodus.


"...the LORD will go before you,
and the God of Israel will be your rear guard."
::Isaiah 52:12b

Thursday, November 05, 2015

A little mixed up

Amos and I live off a street crowded with car dealerships and service centers. This is what went on this morning on the way to dropping Amos off at work:

Jennica, looking at an oil change sign: "Get ready for winter weather"!?  It's not winter!

Amos: It's November.

Jennica: Oh, yeah.  I keep getting mixed up.  I keep thinking that summer is coming, not winter.  It is going to be very disappointing.  Maybe I'm thinking of Kat's weather...in Papua New Guinea...she doesn't live in Papua New Guinea!  Oh dear.

Amos: Maybe it's time to go back to bed.

Tuesday, April 07, 2015

A year later

Last year we were...

packing up our house.
saying goodbye to Santa Clarita friends.
holding back tears as we said goodbye to church friends.
staying up way too late, packing up glasses and plates and lamps and plants and other last-minute odds and ends, aided by our faithful friends, Luke and Danielle.
stopping at TMC one last time to hook up our little car and say goodbye to Todd, our IBEX professor.


waiting at the checkout at Walmart for just one more thing, watching someone else's Thousand Island leap from the conveyor belt and shatter on the floor.
driving through the hills north of L.A., tasting a few of the snacks from Luke and Danielle.
experiencing the grandeur of the Grand Canyon for the first time.


getting caught in a snow storm driving out of Albuquerque.
looking at the colorful houses sprinkled near the roads in a few Indian reservations.
listening to audiobooks.
eating out way too many times.
arriving in Oklahoma City on April 4th, 2014.

Lester recently asked me if I liked OKC better now that we've been here for a while.

That is a difficult question.

Oklahoma beats California in terms of thunderstorms and beautiful clouds.




I still miss Crossroads very much, I miss living next to Luke and Danielle (and baby Amelia), I miss going to normal-to-me grocery stores, I miss California turning green in January, I miss lots and lots of little things.

We found a great church here with genuine people, a good pastor, and opportunities to be involved.  Without them, I know that I would feel adrift and alone.

We both have jobs.  We are paying down Amos' school loans, our car loan, and other bills.

But part of me still doesn't know.  The excitement of moving soon turned into tears, just wanting to go back home.  Poor Amos.  He was very kind and caring, as I spent a lot of time the first five months mourning the loss of friends and lifestyle.

Amos: It's an adventure.  You like adventures!
Me: I'm done with adventures.

Danielle: God has you right where He wants you.
Me, thinking: I don't want Him to want us here.

I know it is easy to look back at California and only see the good parts.  I know it is easy to look at Oklahoma and only see the bad parts.  I don't even necessarily wish we could move back to California, because I know that things would not be exactly the same as they were before.  There are a lot of good things about Oklahoma.  It has just been a long adjustment, one that is still ongoing.


"Thus says the LORD of hosts, the God of Israel, to all the exiles whom I have sent into exile from Jerusalem to Babylon:...seek the welfare of the city where I have sent you into exile, and pray to the LORD on its behalf, for in its welfare you will find your welfare...for I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."
::Jeremiah 29:4, 7, 11


I know Amos and I are not in exile.  But think about this: Judah wanted to be back in Jerusalem, not in Babylon.  However, God had brought them to Babylon, and God didn't want them to waste their time there.  He told them to live their normal lives and to seek the good of the city  His plans were not Judah's plans, but He was still working things out for their good and His glory.

"You turn things upside down!
Shall the potter be regarded as the clay,
that the thing made should say of its maker,
'He did not make me';
or the thing formed say of him who formed it,
'He has no understanding'?"
:: Isaiah 29:16


Shouldn't I also trust Him?

Am I happy in Oklahoma?  Yes and no.
Was I happy in California? Yes and no.

I guess this is just life.  As much as I want it to be, life and experiences and emotions and attachments are rarely cut-and-dried, black-and-white, yes-or-no.  Fortunately, "For I the LORD do not change..."
:: Malachi 3:6a

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Odd, continued

Here are a few more strange things about Oklahoma...

Okra.  The grocery stores sell fresh okra and frozen okra, and it seems like Sprouts has dried okra on sale every week!  Another grocery store had dried okra samples; I didn't try them.

Chicken.  Chicken restaurants are everywhere.  We have Chick-fil-A, Raising Cane's Chicken, Church's Chicken, KFC, Ann's Chicken Fry House, Slim Chickens (haha!), Popeye's, Eischen's (apparently this is the best), etc.

Water towers.  Amos says that the water towers create water pressure (Oklahoma is pretty flat).  The water towers all look different.  Some of them, like this one, are orange and white.  The water towers in Yukon all have red lettering.  (I like water towers, but they kind of creep me out, too.  They look like huge, blood-sucking bugs!)

Masonic lodges.  There are lots and lots of Masonic lodges. I have no idea why!

405. The whole state has just four area codes; FOUR.  405 is the Oklahoma City area code.  Since one-third of the population of OK lives in the Oklahoma City Metro area and thus (presumably) shares this area code, I have been writing my own area code (530) REALLY BIG on all of my applications so that the school districts will call the right person. :)

Gas meters.  Most of the homes in Oklahoma City (or at least NW OKC) have gas meters in their front yards.  Not the prettiest thing to have poking up out of your lawn, but it could be worse.

Friday, July 25, 2014

I am listening to...

someone's music turned a little too high.
librarian voices.
magazine pages turning.
a clicky keyboard.
clearing of throats.
magazine shelves clanging up and down.
automatic doors opening.
more coughing.
textbook pages.
cracking knuckles.
my thoughts.
book receipts printing.
sniffing.
yawning.
discussions.
muffled, shuffling footsteps.
a printer.
protestations.
whispers.
the beep of a scanner.

the library.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Not much to say...

so I'll let a few authors speak for me.

"Oliver slept late and no one woke him as it was Sunday.  He came down at nine fifteen, hungry as a wolf, and indulged in a waffle orgy.  Randy sat beside him to keep him company, though she herself was waffle-logged by that time."
Elizabeth Enright, Spiderweb for Two: A Melendy Maze

"'If there was only one tree like that in the world, you would think it was beautiful,' said Katie. 'But because there are so many, you just can't see how beautiful it really is.'"
Betty Smith, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn

"'...and I thought, as I often have, how many people a person is!  A human being is more many-sided than a prism; he has sides he shows the world, sides he only shows to special others, sides he doesn't know he shows to others, sides he doesn't even guess he has.  No, nobody is simple, no matter how he'd like to be.'"
Elizabeth Enright, "Morgan's Rest"

"She knew the general principles of life - that compromise wins respect from no one, but a straightforward testimony does."
Isobel Kuhn, By Searching

"People would say, 'If you had enough faith, your daughter would be healed.' That had the opposite effect of what they intended.  Instead of looking to God, it put our eyes on ourselves, trying to drum up faith."
Marti Smith, Through Her Eyes: Perspectives on Life from 
Christian Women Serving in the Muslim World, 

Monday, August 05, 2013

Found on page 124

This is an important thing, which I have told many people, and which my father told me, and which his father told him.  When you encounter another person, when you have dealings with anyone at all, it is as if a question is being put to you.  So you must think, What is the Lord asking of me in this moment, in this situation?  If you confront insult or antagonism, your first impulse will be to respond in kind.  But if you think, as it were, This is an emissary sent from the Lord, and some benefit is intended for me, first of all the occasion to demonstrate my faithfulness, the chance to show that I do in some small degree participate in the grace that saved me, you are free to act otherwise than as circumstances would seem to dictate.  You are free to act by your own lights.  You are freed at the same time of the impulse to hate or resent that person.  He would probably laugh at the thought that the Lord sent him to you for your benefit (and his), but that is the perfection of the disguise, his own ignorance of it.
:: Gilead, Marilynne Robinson

Thursday, August 01, 2013

$1.00

As the previous post states, I've been busy organizing, rearranging, and sometimes tossing our papers, possessions, and paraphernalia.  I looked around and saw paper bags, plastic bins, stacks of books, piled blankets, and weary pillows, and while it doesn't usually bother me, for some reason it rankled for a few days.  So I decided to do something about it.

In our bedroom, we have a  tall, plain, white Ikea cabinet that we use for a dresser.  It has four big shelves, which work great!  I never really liked regular dressers anyway; I usually tried to stuff too many t-shirts or socks or whatever into the drawers.  Not the greatest for easy access, plus I could never see everything all at once.  Anyway, the cabinet is great.  The white filing box, clear plastic bin, green sleeping bag, and roll of Christmas tree lights were not great.  So, I jumped on a local facebook page that permits members to buy and sell items at discount prices.  I put up a picture of an Ikea basket that I found on-line and asked if anyone had any to sell; I was willing to pay $4.00 each.

Ikea basket, normally $12.99
A week later, and I have five baskets, for a total cost of $14.00, five for the price of one!  I bought two from one lady for $4.00 each, and three from another for $2.00 each (there was some wear on these).  Now I have three of these on top of our cabinet.  One holds gift bags and boxes, one holds frames and pictures, and one is empty (for now).  The fourth basket is also empty, and it fits perfectly in this little shelf-thing that is also nearly empty.  The fifth is in the kitchen holding plastic bags.  Not too bad!

Another nice thing about this is that I sold a dish set for $15.00 and bought these baskets for $14.00, so I still made $1.00 by getting rid of something I didn't like and acquiring something I did!  Haha!  Now to see what else to sell... ;)

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Around the web 5

I will get around to a post about our trip to Nebraska and our second anniversary, but for now, enjoy some links! :)

Why I Stopped Looking for the Perfect Church by Cole Jeffrey
I'm not sure that I ever actually talked to Cole, but we were a Master's for the same four years.  Some great thoughts on looking (or not looking) for the perfect church.

Teaching Children the Bible by Sally Lloyd-Jones
I LOVE this article.  It really hit home with me.

The Day My Husband and I Got Inked and
Every Day Radical: To the Last Virgins Standing by Emily Wierenga
A very emotional writing style, but I really liked what she had to say.

Homemade Whole-Grain Pancakes by King Arthur Flour
I'm going to make this recipe with the whey that I've drained from my plain yogurt...I sound crazy. :P

Some children's books that I read at the Crete Public Library in Nebraska:
Boot and Shoe, Miss Moore Thought Otherwise, The Houdini Box, Sheep in a Jeep, and Here Come the Girl Scouts! (Boot and Shoe was a fun story with really cute illustrations, though it did have two parts about the little dogs "relieving themselves" on a small tree...just a warning)

EDIT
And another one: DOMA and the Rock by Rosaria Champagne Butterfield

The best pictures from the book. Click to enlarge.

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Around the web 4

Here are some links I've enjoyed recently:

Believing That Which Is Hard To Believe by Mike Gaston, small group and outreach pastor at Grace Baptist
"Wouldn't it be arrogant of me to assume that God would only do that which I am capable of understanding?"

My Dad's Impromptu Challenge by Nancy Leigh DeMoss
Ever thought of making 50-year goals?

Listening to Young Atheists: Lessons for a Stronger Christianity by Larry Alex Taunton for The Atlantic
This just in (okay, it's old news), but Christian youth turn from the church when they sense that the teaching is neither genuine nor able to answer their tough questions.  Interesting study.

How to Read a Book by The Art of Manliness
I haven't read this article yet, but I plan to soon!

Crockpot Peach Chipotle Chicken at thefrugalgirls.com
This recipe was just for inspiration.  I made peach preserves and mixed it with a little bit of honey barbecue sauce, onions, and bell peppers.  We ate it over grilled chicken breasts with brown and white rice, green beans, and avocado.  It was really good.

Song of the week by Michael Buble': It's a Beautiful Day

And a funny video that Danielle showed me on Monday, when I invited myself over to her house:
Cat Jump Fail with Music

Sunday, May 05, 2013

Cats, ants, and coffee grounds

I did it.  I finally picked up a free bag of coffee grounds.  Starbucks provides these huge packages of used coffee grounds for enterprising people like me who are trying to get rid of pests.  (Okay, maybe the grounds are really for gardens...maybe.)

Amos and I have a narrow sideyard/patch of dirt that runs the length of our house and leads to our backyard.  Unfortunately, the neighborhood cats think that our sideyard is their litterbox.  Our manager comes along and rakes it out every once in a while, but still...who wants to smell cat waste every time they walk to or from their car?!  Not I!

I went to the grocery store after church today to get some cereal, and when I walked in the door, I looked to the left and saw the little Starbucks kiosk.  Aha!  I wouldn't have to visit an actual Starbucks store and awkwardly grab a bag and run; I could just get the grounds here!  I lugged the moist bag, which threatened to empty its contents at any moment, around the store and back to my car.

After arriving home, I brought the package inside and let it be while I mixed up some bagels.  Leaving the bagels to rise, I stepped back outside to survey my weapons: leaf rake, garden trowel, coffee grounds.  I chopped up the dirt with the trowel, raked the dirt back and forth a bit, and got my hands very dirty spreading out the grounds.  Here's hoping the local cats don't like coffee!  I'm also hoping it will take care of the really annoying, tiny, red grease ants that keep popping up in our kitchen.  Come on, coffee!  "Fulfill your ministry!"

Thursday, December 20, 2012

"Friendship"

I think my friend Heather has a point when she says one reason she deleted Facebook was because "...some things people post on Facebook rile me up unnecessarily and cause me to judge them in ways I shouldn't."  Well, something on Facebook irritated me enough to write a post about it, though I've thought about this  for quite some time.

Anyway, this person had a quote from Ayn Rand, libertarian and feminist extraordinaire, about friendship.  Or, "friendship," as I would call it.  If you know a bit about Ayn Rand (I read part of an article about her and her philosophy once), you know that she thought that living for self was the ultimate goal in life.  She believed in a society run with no commitments and no restrictions on personal liberty and the personal pursuit of happiness.  Here is her quote about "friendship."
"I shall choose friends among men, but neither slaves nor masters.  And I shall choose only such as please me, and them I shall love and respect, but neither command nor obey.  And we shall join our hands when we wish, or walk alone when we so desire."
"And I shall choose only such as please me, and them I shall love and respect..."  Is this true friendship?  I've seen quotes around the internet about "Choose only those friends who build you up and make you a better person.  If they take too much out of you, ditch 'em."  (I'm talking here about friends who drag you down emotionally and relationally simply by their personality or life choices, not people who are openly hostile and manipulative, who try to use you rather than truly befriend you.)  Well, if the world followed the philosophy of Ayn Rand and random internet quotes, I don't suppose I would be friends with quite a few people!  My parents chose to befriend my brothers and sisters and I as we were growing up, not because we would make my parents better people, but because they loved us, had a commitment to us, and wanted us to be better people.  My ARA in college chose to befriend me as an annoying freshman not because I would make her a better person, but because she cared about me.  My roommate Katharyn chose to befriend me not because I irritated her and tickled her and teased her and jumped out of closets at her, but because she cared about me.  When I came to care more about her than about myself, we got along a lot better.  Amos chose to befriend me and continues to befriend me even when I hurt him.  I told him one time, "I don't want you to have to love the ugly parts of me," to which he replied, "but that really isn't love, is it?"

One of my best friends is different from me in almost every way.  I told her once that the only thing we have in common is our blue eyes, haha!  There have been times when it would have been easier on me to withdraw myself, to cease to reach out to her, to give her the cold shoulder, to let her wander off and out of my life.  But I didn't.  Why?  Because I thought that that wasn't loving; because I thought that perhaps she needed a friend that didn't give up on her; because I thought maybe I could influence her for good, even if she didn't always listen to me.

Are these relationships just that, relationships, not friendships?  Why must friendships only benefit me?  Why not make friends to benefit others?  Why only seek out like-minded people to be friends with?  Why avoid the rough edges?  What is the difference between love and friendship?

Indifference, rejection, lack of commitment, self-interest.  Is this how we are to respond when a friend, who needs help, is costing us more than we want to pay?  That's not how God responded.  God looked at Israel and saw a pitiful, whiny, unfaithful people, and He loved them.  God saw Peter, His chosen Church founder, who denied him, who made mistakes, who was embarrassing, and He loved him.  God saw me, a selfish introvert who would rather not reach out to others, who would rather love her husband and no one else, who would rather not learn to be patient with people, and He loved me.  Can't I learn to love others, too, even more, to befriend others who often don't give me what I want, who don't always show love in return, who sometimes irritate me, who cause me stress, who misunderstand and misinterpret me on occasion?

Friendship - not just love, but friendship -  is an investment, even when you don't know if you'll get any worthwhile returns.  And that is worth much more than living for the friendship of self.

Monday, December 17, 2012

Size Large

When I am freezing or when I get a cold, I pull out my size large, dark grey sweatshirt from my first official job, Sunshine Day Care.  I worked at Sunshine for two semesters during my freshman year of college.  My boss, a Christian guy, was weird.  He didn't let his Sunshine workers pick out size small work shirts at the corporate office.  Presumably this was to stop his employees from choosing too-small shirts when they really needed a larger size.  Thus I ended up with several too big, size medium t-shirts, which looked ridiculous on me, not to mention the fact that a few were emblazoned with huge, yellow suns wearing shades.  My boss' rule really didn't make sense when I saw my coworkers, who should have worn size large, wearing their tight size mediums, the same size as mine; what was the point of the rule again?  :P

Any way, our boss also got us site sweatshirts when the spring semester rolled around.  I guess he just upped the t-shirt sizes from each of us when he ordered the sweatshirts.  Thus I have a size large sweatshirt to go with my size extra-small self.  I can't say that I appreciated it seven years ago, but I sure appreciate it now in the cold, even though I look ridiculous.  I wonder if I could stuff Amos in here, too?! :)

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Hell in the sanctified imagination

*Disclaimer: I know that people don't like to think or talk about hell, and I'm not sure that I do, either.  However, I am a Christian and thus believe in a literal hell.  I don't believe in hell because I want revenge on anyone, and I certainly don't believe that I have any responsibility for who goes to hell (referring to the common question, "if I don't believe in Jesus, do you believe I will go to hell?"  Well, yes, but it's not MY condemnation, it's your own for not accepting Christ, and it's what the Bible says.  "Don't shoot the messenger.")

At one of our Thursday Bible study meetings, our Bible study leader asked us, "What do you think hell is like?"  A few people gave some answers, then Jeff asked Amos what he thought.  Here's a paraphrase of Amos' response.  It is not meant to be taken as biblical fact but rather as Amos' own view of what hell could be like.

"I don't think hell is like a nightmare, like many people think [dark, scary, monster-filled, etc.].  I think it is more like finally understanding that God is God, and being eaten up by that knowledge for eternity.  You finally understand and believe what God has done for you  on the cross, and you are eaten up by the fact that God loves you and doesn't want you in hell, but that His perfect justice will not allow Him to take you out of hell.  You live in eternity with the knowledge of both the truth and your rejection."

How sad!  How horrifying.

Thursday, November 01, 2012

The Christian and the Homosexual

The Bible says that homosexuality is wrong (see Romans 1).  As Christians, we need to know how to respond to a culture that is increasingly accepting of homosexuality, even when there aren't that many actual homosexual individuals in the United States (this statistic was brought to my attention by Al Mohler in one of his Briefings).

One resource that I found very helpful was an interview conducted by Tim Challies and David Murray.  The interviewee was Rosaria Butterfield, an ex-lesbian who is now a conservative, Christian, homeschool-mom to four children adopted from the foster care system (yea!); talk about a one-eighty.  You would think that Rosaria would give the same pat answers and suggestions that you always hear, but I was surprised and challenged as I listened to her testimony and her words of advice.  She also is very eloquent, which I appreciate. :)  You can listen to the interview here.

Here's a quote from the interview that doesn't apply just to the problem of homosexuality; I found it very thought-provoking.
"True believers can be beaten down by sin faster and more furiously than sanctification can buoy them up."
What a call to be both on our toes and on our knees!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Around the web 3

Here are some more links to enjoy!

via Tim Challies "Just Disconnect" by Carl Trueman
I really liked this article and then felt guilty that I had just posted on Facebook that I was drinking tea and browsing Pinterest.

The purpose of mist. by Heather Surls
My friend Heather went for a walk early one morning, and here are her thoughts.

via my friend Elizabeth Confessions of a Young Widow: The Little Things I Miss About Being Married by Sabrina Beasley
This was written by a friend of my friend Elizabeth.  I thought it was funny that after I read this article, Amos came home and was doing something "juvenile," so I got to tease him about it.  He's pretty great! :)

Chicken Parmigiana from The Pioneer Woman
I always thought that breaded chicken had to be baked, but it doesn't!  I made my own sauce but used this method for cooking the chicken. So good.
As a side note, Ree Drummond, The Pioneer Woman, is hilarious.  I love reading her recipes because she is a nut!


A favorite picture from Bangalore