Sunday, March 24, 2013

Articles and pictures

I read this article by Ann Voskamp and thought that you should, too:
After Steubenville: 25 Things Our Sons need to know about Manhood


On a different topic, this article by John Piper is good, too:


Today is Palm Sunday!  Here are some pictures from Easter, seven years ago, in Jerusalem.  Click the pictures for a better view, especially the picture of the Greek Orthodox procession. :)

Awwwww, a young Jennica and a furry Amos
The Garden Tomb (not the actual place of Jesus' burial and resurrection)
Amos, Colin, and Nate; Brittany, Megan, Jennica, and Ryan
Outside the Garden Tomb
Even though it was Easter, to the Greek Orthodox it was Palm Sunday
Courtyard of the Church of the Holy Sepulchre
It was also a Jewish day of blessing
The Western Wall Plaza

Friday, March 15, 2013

He Who Must Not Be Named

Our little, white Toyota died two weeks ago.  I dropped off Amos at work, took two right turns and a left, and heard a sickening, grinding crunch.  Our car was dead.  Goodbye, little transmission!
Our friend Megan immediately hopped in her car and took me to work, where I told my woes to my instructional assistant, Linda.  Linda gave me a ride down the hill and around the corner to Enterprise, where I rented a car for a really good price.  Later that day John and Cami lent us their Taurus, allowing us to return the rental car (good riddance; did not like that rental car).  Thus began the two-week trial of test driving cars, listening to salesmen's spiels, getting financing, and finding a car within our price range.  We finally found one at a little used car lot staffed by a very friendly and helpful manager, Brian.  Amos let me drive the new car home last night, which was great and really fun, in spite of a long, freeway detour on surface streets.  Even that wouldn't have been that bad if I hadn't imbibed so much water, tea, and Gatorade yesterday, haha!
Now we have our little car, and here are some pictures!  The journey isn't over quite yet, though.  Amos just called to say that our loan didn't work out the way we expected, so we have to do more paperwork to correct that (it's okay, it will just take a little longer to get everything squared away; always read the fine print!).
A few of our friends have named their cars (weird).  Cami's Taurus is named Dory after the forgetful fish on "Finding Nemo."  Courtney named her hybrid Prius Priscilla.  Luke's green Honda is called Elliot after "Pete's Dragon," and Danielle's Corolla is named Ebenezer, because God worked in a miraculous way to provide that car at just the right time.  Mom is the only one in my family who ever called a car by a name and then only sporadically.  She would encourage one of our cars or vans to chug up hills by saying, "Come on, Bessie!!!"
Amos and I do not name our cars.  However, I told Amos that we should call our car He Who Must Not Be Named*, just to be funny and snarky.  Haha!  We'll see if it actually sticks.

Our little 2007 Hyundai Elantra, manual transmission, 82,000 miles: 
He Who Must Not Be Named


Just waiting on the "I kill my own SPIDERS" bumper sticker

Wow, it looks so nice!



*He Who Must Not Be Named is another title for Voldemort, the villain in the Harry Potter books

Saturday, March 09, 2013

Thrift Store Finds: January 29-March 9th

Assistance League finds
The Assistance League Thrift store is right down the street from Amos and me.  I went there with only one dollar (on purpose), but had to come back home to get a few more!

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, J.K. Rowling, with dust jacket
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, J.K. Rowling, with dust jacket
The Trumpet of the Swan, E.B. White, with dust jacket (I love this one!)
The Handmade Alphabet, Laura Rankin, with dust jacket (for my friend Becky, who is a sign language interpreter at the local junior college; she and her husband Mike have a little boy, so I figured they'd like this one)
Four books for $4.36!

Public library finds, right down the street
Berenstains' Baby Book, Stanley and Janice Berenstain
The Berenstains' B Book, Stanley and Janice Berenstain
Two books for $1.50!

Local church library find
Barrier Free Friendships: Bridging the Distance between You and Friends with Disabilities, Joni Eareckson Tada and Steve Jensen
Free!

Canyon Country Goodwill finds

Adventures of Amelia Bedelia,  Peggy Parish (three stories in one)
The Big Honey Hunt, Stanley and Janice Berenstain
The Polar Express, Chris Van Allsburg

Three books for $5.00!

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

E.D.

E.D. stands for emotionally disturbed in the world of special education.  For the last four and the next eight days, this is my world.  I'm subbing at a small charter school which serves emotionally disturbed junior high and high schoolers.

When I worked at Summit View in 2011, the line was basically that every day could be different; you never knew who would comply, who would crack up, who would defy, who would break down.  This school is the same.  I never know who will show up for school, where they will be on campus, or if they will ever enter my room, even if their name is on my roll sheet.  Most of the kids are fine, but there are still some defiant, rude, foul-mouthed stinkers.  One student I could only recognize by two square inches of his lower face; he's afraid of germs right now, so he keeps his hood tightly cinched around his head (strangely, he still let me near him to ask about his work, even though I had a bad cold).  Another student got mad when I shushed him during class, and a third kid piped up during art and said that he wanted his teacher back, that he was tired of looking at me.  These are just a few of the stories I could tell; it's draining, to say the least.

I'm thankful for it, though.  The call for this long-term sub job came from God out of nowhere; He is caring for Amos and me.

If you think of me, please feel free to pray that I will be firm, wise, and kind with these broken, broken kids.


Monday, February 18, 2013

This Is Not My Hat

The main character
I've been reading Redeemed Reader, a website dedicated to reviewing children's books from a Christian perspective.  I found a review of the book This Is Not My Hat by Jon Klassen on the site about a month ago, so I automatically reserved it at my library.  It finally came, and I skimmed it right there in the library, before I even brought it home.
The informant
Over the three weeks that we had This Is Not My Hat, I read it to myself several times, I got Amos to read it to me at least twice, I read it to Amos once or twice, and even Danielle sat through a reading.  I love it. :)  It's a story about a little fish who steals a hat and might get away with it. ;)  I was thrilled when I found out that This Is Not My Hat won the 2013 Caldecott Medal, the most prestigious annual award for children's picture books.

When Valentine's came around, I decided to make Amos a little valentine based off of the book.  He really liked it.  You can click on the picture below to see it a little better.

This Is Not My Heart

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

God's Smuggler

I've been collecting missions and missionary book titles, and several people have mentioned God's Smuggler as a good one for my list.  God's Smuggler by Brother Andrew and John and Elizabeth Sherrill is a fairly popular book in the Christian world, but I'd never read it.  I figured I would get around to reading it eventually.  Then I saw that it's the free audiobook for February from christianaudio.com!  I've tried audiobooks before but wasn't completely sold on the idea (I like the act of actually reading, plus I can get distracted from the story if I try to do too many things at once).  However, when something free crosses my path, I at least slow down to check it out. ;)  I created an account on christianaudio, downloaded the book to my bright green iPod (a friend gave me one that she no longer uses!), and started listening to the story of a lost young Dutchman who found God and caught a vision of smuggling forbidden Bibles behind the Iron Curtain.  I've been listening to the book while I do the dishes or put things away or work on little projects that don't require much thought.  I'm now about twenty-five minutes from the end! :(  After this experience, I can't wait to see what March's free audiobook will be!

One of my favorite ideas from the book, repeated several times, goes something like this, an exchange between Brother Andrew and his wife Corrie:
Brother Andrew: We don't know where we're going...
Corrie: ...let's go there together.
It sounds like Amos and I! :)

Another idea went something like this:
Indifference to the church is more dangerous than persecution.

You only have sixteen more days to download this book!  When you download it, it is yours to keep; it doesn't expire.  I hope you like God's Smuggler as much as I do! :)  After you've listened to this book, consider reading Secret Believers and Light Force to find out about Brother Andrew's work in the Middle East.

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

Spring!

Spring is coming!  The daffodils right outside our front door are starting to bloom.

First daffodil, with more to come!

We also have a few happy patches of clover.  I hope our apartment manager leaves the little clumps there for a while!  Last year he dug them out just as they were getting big. :(

Happy clumps of freckled clover

Monday, January 28, 2013

Library finds

Thankfully that is library "finds" and not library "fines," haha!  I bought some good books at the library today!

Eight books for $4.00!
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone, J.K. Rowling
A Fly Went By, Mike McClintock
Winnie the Pooh set, A.A. Milne

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Forty-Seven

It's finally here:  My 2012 book list!  I'm rather proud of the fact that I read forty-seven books in 2012, until I remember that most of them were children's books.  No matter; I enjoyed them, and since this is my list, that's all that counts, haha!

Here are the links from my book lists in 2011 and 2010.

Here is the key again:
* fun
# favorite
+ career reading

And without further ado, in no particular order...

Jennica-Ayelet's 2012 Reading List

Middle East
The Arabs: Journey Beyond the Mirage by David Lamb
This is one of my favorite books on the Middle East so far.  Maybe I liked it because I understood/agreed with most of his assessments. ;)  I particularly liked his chapter on terrorist attacks.  This was written pre-September 11th (1987), so it was interesting to read in light of recent events.

Gertrude Bell: Queen of the Desert, Shaper of Nations by Georgina Howell
This book was about an English woman who went on all sorts of adventures around the world and the Middle East in the late 1800s-early 1900s.  The author claims that Gertrude Bell was more important than Lawrence of Arabia in the shaping of the Middle East; I'm not so sure about that.  In any case, Gertrude was definitely an interesting, influential, and intimidating Person (with a capital P).  I thought this book was worth reading because it showed her relationship to the Middle East as well as explained much of the history behind the modern Middle East; she was heavily involved in the formation of the state of Iraq.  I was more eager to read about the Middle East than to learn about Gertrude's personal life, but the book was well-written, so I didn't get bored.

A Street in Marrakech, Elizabeth Warnock Fernea
One of my favorite authors on the Middle East (she also wrote Guests of the Sheik about her time in Iraq), Fernea wrote about the time that she and her family spent in Marrakech, Morocco.  It was interesting to see how she tried to fit in with her neighbors and how her children responded to the new culture.

In the Steps of the Master, H.V. Morton
I don't remember much about this one, but I did like it.  Morton traveled to Israel and wrote about the landscape, the cultures, and the Bible.  This book was written in 1934, before the State of Israel was established.

Queen Noor: American-Born Queen of Jordan, Lucia Raatman
I picked this up at one of the local schools and read it in a few hours.  I had heard about Queen Noor before, but this book gave a pretty good overview of her life and some of the pressures involved in being a queen in a developing Middle Eastern nation.

Other
Flowers for Algernon by Daniel Keyes
A very interesting book, with some sketchy parts.  The main character Charlie is a mentally-handicapped man (how do you say that in a sensitive but accurate way?) who volunteers for a brain surgery that may - or may not - greatly enhance his mental abilities.  This story is told in journal entry form and follows the rollercoaster of Charlie's life over a few months as he rises to great heights and falls to greater depths.  The main idea that I took away from it was one that Charlie repeated more than once, speaking about one of his doctors: "He makes me feel that before the experiment I was not really a human being."  Intriguing.

The Da Vinci Code, Dan Brown
I got this highly-controversial, wildly popular (back in the day) book for free from the teachers' lounge at one of the local high schools.  While I totally reject the ideas that Dan Brown wrote about in his book, they aren't original to him: People literally think that Jesus married Mary Magdalene and that His blood was carried on, that the Catholic church is trying to hide the "facts," etc.  Now that I know which books espouse this blasphemous idea, I seem to see them in every used book store!  The Da Vinci Code is a mystery/thriller about finding the hiding place of the bones of Mary Magdalene; one set of characters is trying to locate them so that they can tell the world "the truth" and the other set of characters is trying to hide the location because they are supposedly sacred and shouldn't be paraded about.  I thought that the book was very well written and riveting, though the ideas are false.  Read with discernment and insight; use your brains, people!  After reading this book, I read a little booklet coauthored by Lee Strobel and Garry Poole called "Exploring the Da Vinci Code"; it was very good.  I am now going to use my copy of The Da Vinci Code for craft projects. ;)

Washington Square, Henry James
I decided to read this classic before I went to India; it was sitting on the shelf, why not?  It was an interesting story about a tough father, a simple-minded daughter, a romantic/ridiculous maiden aunt, and suitor that you aren't sure if he really loves the daughter or not.  Not at all soppy or mushy.  Interesting but kind of confusing in the end.  That's about all that I have to say about it, haha!

My Name is Asher Lev, Chaim Potok
Amos and I both read this book, after I found out that my friend Heather had read it.  It was well-written, as Chaim Potok's books tend to be.  Asher is the only child of an orthodox Jewish couple.  He loves art, but his family and Jewish community don't understand this drive since they don't see art as valuable to Jewish faith or tradition.  I think that the book really asks the question, what is the purpose and importance of art in an individual and a community?  Asher has to ask himself, "how far will I go to be true to myself and my artistic abilities?  What happens when my art hurts those who are closest to me?"  Chaim Potok was definitely interested in psychology, specifically the psychology of Sigmund Freud; this comes out strongly in this book and others that I've read.

The Pig in the Pantry and Other Homeschool Tales, Rose Godfrey
Amos and I were both homeschooled, so we really liked these hilarious stories.  Even if you weren't homeschooled, you'd still like this book.

A Tramp Abroad, Mark Twain
Mark Twain wrote several books about his travels, all of them embellished to some degree.  This books covers a walking tour of Germany, Switzerland, and a few other European countries.  It did take a little effort to get into the narrative at first, but I still thought it was hilarious, as are most of Twain's works.

# The Magician's Book: A Skeptic's Adventures in Narnia, Laura Miller
This book was written by a former-Catholic-now-atheist-or-agnostic woman who is still in love with Narnia, for some reason that she spends a few hundred pages trying to explain.  I thought it was very interesting, even though I didn't agree with many of her assessments about Lewis and Christianity in general.  She tended to make psychological judgments about Lewis that had to do with his mother, suppressed desires, relationships that were "more," etc.  Overall Miller's comments about Narnia and literature in general were very interesting.

Christian
# A Passion for the Impossible: The Life of Lillias Trotter by Miriam Huffman Rockness
One of my favorite books from 2012.  Read more about it here.

# Woman to Woman: Sharing Jesus with a Muslim Friend, Joy Loewen
This book was good because it explained some of the fears that Muslim women have, how to talk about them, and how to tie it all in with the Gospel.  It was very practical and encouraging.

Nests Above the Abyss, Isobel Kuhn
My favorite missionary. :)  See what I had to say about this book here.

# By Searching: My Journey through Doubt into Faith, Isobel Kuhn
My favorite missionary's story of how God turned her from an agnostic to a Christian.  I definitely want to read this again in 2013 and take some notes on some my favorite quotes.  Fantastic.

# Lit!  A Christian Guide to Reading Books, Tony Reinke
I read a lot of books.  So why read a book about reading books?  Good question.  I read about this book on Tim Challies' blog and decided it might be good.  One of the most useful things I got from the book was the fact that you can only read so many books in your lifetime; why waste time on bad or even mediocre ones?  I'm going to buy this one when I find it on sale somewhere.

# Atheism Remix: A Christian Confronts the New Atheists, R. Albert Mohler, Jr.
This book takes a lot of concentration, but I thought it was worth the effort.  I found that I often read books, think they are great, then promptly forget their main points.  I decided to take notes on this book and other books I read, and it really helped.  Al Mohler talks about the "Four Horsemen of the New Atheism," where each man came from, their main ideas and theories, and the issues they have with Christianity.  Mohler also talks about the liberal Christian response to atheism and makes the point that anything less than biblical theism is inadequate to answer atheism's challenges.  To paraphrase, a God who is acceptable in the secular age is a God who does not appear as the Bible says and thus is a God who could not save.  Great to read in light of our increasingly secular society.

Surprised by Joy: The Shape of My Early Life, C.S. Lewis
I thought this book was about how C.S. Lewis met his wife Joy Davidman and how she later died of cancer. Ooops!  It is actually an autobiography of Lewis' life from childhood to conversion.  I really enjoyed it.  Lewis explains how he went from agnostic to atheist to Christian and the methods, that he could perceive, that God used to pull him to Himself.

Roald Dahl Books
**This is a category in itself because I read so many of Dahl's books and enjoyed them so much :) **

*# Boy: Tales of Childhood, Roald Dahl
Autobiography of his childhood.  Favorite parts?  The Great Mouse Plot and stories about the ancient half-sister

* Going Solo, Roald Dahl
Autobiography of his young adulthood.  Favorite parts?  His work in Africa for the Shell Oil Company and his adventures as a pilot in World War II

* The BFG, Roald Dahl
The Big Friendly Giant and a little orphan girl named Sophie work to get rid of child-eating giants and even enlist the queen's help

* Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl
Charlie and a few other children travel to Willy Wonka's chocolate factory and meet many mysteries and mishaps.  Includes this poem about books :)

* Charlie and the Great Glass Elevator, Roald Dahl
The sequel to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory in which Willy Wonka, Charlie, and Charlie's family first go to outer space and later return to the chocolate factory

*# The Witches, Roald Dahl
A boy hears about witches from his grandmama, never knowing that he will meet a whole convention of them himself when the two of them go on vacation!  I really liked the illustrations in this book. :)

* Matilda, Roald Dahl
Matilda is a brilliant little girl who plays pranks on her horrible parents and eventually learns to move things with her mind, which enables her to save her beloved teacher, Miss Honey, from the terrible headmistress, The Trunchbull

The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar and Six More, Roald Dahl
I didn't like this collection of short stories so much; the majority of the stories were sad or dark.  I did think the story "The Wonderful Story of Henry Sugar" was pretty good, though.

Children's/Young Adult
* Mr. Popper's Penguins, Richard and Florence Atwater
I liked all of the antics of the penguins. :)  I started reading this at Josh and Grace's house, when we were snowed out of Yosemite.

* Little House in the Big Woods, Laura Ingalls Wilder
* Little House on the Prairie, Laura Ingalls Wilder
* Farmer Boy, Laura Ingalls Wilder
I've read all of the Little House books before, but Amos and I found a complete boxset just like the one my family has (well, our set is yellow; my family's set is blue).  I reread the first three Little House books.  Farmer Boy is my favorite of the whole series.  I always remember to pierce my potatoes before I cook them so that I don't end up with an exploding potato, like Almanzo did.

* The Moffats, Eleanor Estes
The stories of a family around the time of World War I.  Great!

* Rufus M., Eleanor Estes
The youngest of the Moffats.  My favorite part was when he went to the amusement park with the Cardboard Boy.

* Ginger Pye, Eleanor Estes
A story about the Pyes, who live in the same town as the Moffats.  Jerry gets a dog and names him Ginger, but Ginger is kidnapped!  We bought this book for my youngest brother, Gio, and he really, really liked it.  Amos and I liked it, too.

* Pinky Pye, Eleanor Estes
The Pyes live on an island for a summer where they adopt a kitten named Pinky.

* The Twenty-One Balloons, William Pene du Bois
Good for boys!  This book is about a former teacher who is going to sail around the world in hot air balloon, until the balloon crashes on a mysterious island.

A Long Way from Chicago, Richard Peck
I wanted to like this one because my old roommate, Katharyn, talked about it several times, but I did not.  It just had this feel that I didn't like.  I've met other books like this, and I'm not sure what it is...strange diction and odd comparisons, I think.

Peter Pan (Peter and Wendy), J.M. Barrie
The real story of Peter Pan, very different from the Disney version, of course.  I wanted to like this one because another book lover friend, Jamie, loves this one, but alas...I did not.

The Hunger Games, Suzanne Collins
Catching Fire, Suzanne Collins
Mockingjay, Suzanne Collins
Fascinating, riveting, fast-paced books about a dystopian, restive society.  Not my favorite, but very interesting.  Read my review here.  Looking back at that review, I think I wrote it in an effort to understand Katniss as a character; Suzanne Collins did write three very interesting books with believable characters, even though I didn't like Katniss as much as the rest of the population seems to.

* The Enormous Egg, Oliver Butterworth
A chicken lays an enormous egg, which hatches into a dinosaur!

*# The Tale of Despereaux, Kate DiCamillo
One of my absolute favorites from 2012. :)  Read about it here.

Patty Fairfield, Carolyn Wells
This is a book that Amos said he and his sisters read when they were younger.  He found the Kindle edition of the series for free!  This is the first book; it relates Patty's visits with three different sets of relatives.  Written in the early 1900s.

* Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, J.K. Rowling (Year 2)
* Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, J.K. Rowling (Year 3)
*# Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, J.K. Rowling (Year 4)
After finishing the series on January 16th, I decided that Harry Potter is one of my new favorite series.  Even though I just finished it, I want to read them all again.  I will write more about Harry Potter, and a little of the controversy that surrounds him in Christian circles, in another post.


Some of my goals for 2013, that I can think of off the top of my head...
  • Blog more often
  • Read at least four missionary biographies
  • Finish The Meaning of Marriage by Timothy Keller
  • Finish Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
  • Reread By Searching by Isobel Kuhn (already started!)

Happy reading!

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Goodwill: Books, Chicken Pot, Mason Jars

Amos and I visited two different Goodwill stores on Saturday, and this is what we found!


The Legacy of Sovereign Joy: God's Triumphant Grace in the Lives of Augustine, Luther, and Calvin, John Piper (The Swans Are Not Silent series)
Caps for Sale, Esphyr Slobodkina
The Magic Finger, Roald Dahl
Pilgrim at Tinker Creek, Annie Dillard (1975 Pulitzer Prize winner for general non-fiction; recommended by my book-loving friend, Heather)
The Phantom Tollbooth, Norton Juster
Four American Girl books
One American Girl Kirsten book set (all six books in one!)
The Tale of Despereaux, Kate DiCamillo (2004 Newbery Medal winner)
The Way Things Work, David Macaulay (My parents have this book, and I remember looking in it as a kid!)
12 4-oz mason jars with lids, never been opened!
A small Corningware cooking pot and lid; works really well for cooking chicken!

All for the grand total of $30.00, or $2.00 per item :)

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

Les Miserables

Amos and I went and saw Les Mis on Saturday, and the music is just beautiful.  I'm a little slow to jump on the bandwagon, but that's okay.

Here are YouTube links to two of my favorite songs from the movie.  I saw an offer for a free $2.00 MP3 credit for amazon.com, so I used it to buy these two songs. :)  Hopefully more credits will come along so that I can get the rest of the album. :)

I Dreamed a Dream - So sad. I'm so thankful that I don't have Fantine's life, though I know that many women around the world do.

In My Life/A Heart Full of Love - Amos thinks this song is ridiculous, but I like it. :)

Here is a blogpost on Les Miserables that I thought was excellent!  My friend Grace Wheeler (from the "Snowsemite" weekend) posted it on Facebook.  (Amos and I personally thought that Russell Crowe sang very well, though he didn't sound evil or scary or anything...but this blogpost address the lack of "scary" in his voice very well, I think.)

Friday, January 04, 2013

Crying for the Russians

I don't think about myself as a very emotional person, but I cried this morning, for good reason.

You've probably heard that Russia, has chosen to close its doors to American families looking to adopt Russian orphans.  The US wrote a ban on Russia, refusing the help or work with Russians who have violated human rights.  Russia, in an effort to look tough, decided that Americans could no longer adopt their children, because in some rare and hopefully extreme cases, Americans were abusing their new children or even sending them back.  This Russian ban on adoption, separated from personal experience, is heartwrenching.

I've never adopted anyone.  My parents, however, have gone through the process of domestic adoption, and it is work, both before and after you get your children.  I don't know what it's like as a parent to wait for your child whom you've never met.

But I can imagine...

You have been praying for years concerning adoption, and you finally know that God has directed you as a couple to look in Russia.  The two of you fill out the paperwork, pay lots of money, fill out more paperwork, pay more fees, pay for passports, write e-mails, and pray, pray, pray.  Your church family prays, too, and while you are happy that they care so much, it gets tedious having to say every week, "No, not yet!"  "No, we haven't heard anything."  "We are hoping to get a name soon."  "Thank you for praying, yes, we're sure that we're doing everything we can."

The day that God has appointed from eternity finally comes: You are matched with a child, a little boy with blue eyes and light brown hair!  He looks kinda thin, but he's smiling; maybe he knows that you are waiting for him.  You now have a face and a name to add to all those longing prayers.

After mountains of more paperwork, your social worker finally lets you know the date that you can fly out.  You and your spouse hurriedly arrange time off, buy tickets, ask a church kid to housesit for you, find someone to take you to the airport.  You try not to think about how you hate flying, how there is so much left to do, how your little boy will react when you see him, how you will react when you see your little boy, how you've only been to Hawaii before and isn't Russia really cold?  The two of you go to Target, picking out the perfect green and brown plaid shirt for your little Russian boy, wondering if you should get the shirt in the next biggest size, because you really couldn't tell from the picture how big he is.  You talk together of all the fun things you are going to do as a new family, and you thank God for bringing this to pass.

And then, you hear rumblings that Russia might cut off all your adoption hope in one swift decision.  You pray more fervently, wish the days would go by more quickly, distract yourself in a million ways so that you won't have to contemplate the possibility of
never
seeing
your
little boy.
His picture hangs on your fridge and lives in your wallet as a reminder to hope and to pray.

And then the news: The ban has been enacted; your little boy is stuck, thousands of miles away, a seeming eternity from your hopes, dreams, hugs, kisses, love.

What do you do?  What do you do?

The only comfort, is that God knows.  God is for you, even when you don't understand.

And God wins, even if we won't be able to see it.  He cares for the orphans.

"Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good!
Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him! 
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit."
:: Psalm 34:8, 18

In the midst of intense pain,
God is our only great, undiminishable, everlasting hope.

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Pray for the waiting orphans.  Pray for the waiting families.  Pray for Vladimir Putin.