Life after school

Once again I am faced with uncertainty.

What will I do next year (next year as in August; for teachers and students, years are measured from August to July ;) )?

Where will I work?

Where will I live?

With whom will I live?

Will I even have a job?

What happens if I don't get a job?

Should I keep hoping that there will be substitute positions open in SoCal and/or NorCal, or should I look for a normal administrative assistant job?

Where is my flashing light from heaven?

There will be no flashing light. Because this too is a test to see if I will trust God in the midst of uncertainty, do my best with what I think He wants me to do, and let Him handle the outcome. Not easy, but then life isn't easy. Life's not easy like the button at Staples, and life's not like the movies.

I suppose I should start by listening to my pastor's message, "Worry Is Dumb!"

*sigh*

"When did we grow up?! And how do we make it stop?!"

Just kidding. I like being grown up. I remember a friend of mine trying to convince me on many different occasions that I was a grown up, errr, an adult. I think I finally believe him, though being an adult doesn't mean you stop learning. While it is great to have my parents to live with and to get help from for now, I want to move on. And that takes money. And money comes from a job. So I really want a job...a teaching job. 'Cuz teaching kids is fun...and I've started the countdown for my clear credential already...I have five years in which to get a job and to complete two years of teaching. And while I have the résumé to be hired, I'm not the most dynamic person out there (plus I myself don't look like I have graduated from high school yet). I can hold my own in the classroom, though...I have the Look.

Any way, I have rambled enough.

Pictures of the yard...if God clothes the grass of the field, won't He take care of me, oh I of little faith?